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Aug 15

My Middle School Had Its Own Variation of Bloody Mary, But She Was Real



"My Middle School Had Its Own Variation of Bloody Mary, But She Was Real"

Written by N.B. Smith


Everyone knows the story of Bloody Mary and everyone knows how to “summon” her: say her name three times in front of a mirror with the lights off. Of course, there are slight variations to the exact story depending on where you live, but it’s all basically the same, right?

My school was no different. A bunch of us girls in the 7th grade would gather up in the bathroom at least once a week, turn off the lights, and say her name three times. Of course, nothing happened, but I always kept my eyes squeezed closed, so even if something did happen, I wouldn’t have seen it. We were a bit morbid, thinking back on it.

I knew that it wouldn’t work, but I also knew that we shouldn’t be tempting fate. The urban legend states that she would kill you or scratch your eyes out, so why exactly would we even have wanted to try to summon her? I guess kids do stupid things when they’re young, but that’s no excuse for how far it went.

Like I said, it started with a bunch of us in 7th grade doing the “ritual” in the bathroom closest to our 4th-period class. The six of us had all met in 4th period at the beginning of the year, and since 4th period was right before lunch, we would all slip away and do our “ritual” without being bothered. Bloody Mary, or Mary, as we began to call her, became almost like a long-lost friend of ours. I don’t think that my friends knew that I kept my eyes closed, though, and I wasn’t about to tell them that it was possibly my fault that it wasn’t working.


Nothing happened over the span of a few months. No Mary appearance, although we tried a bunch of variations. At least, until the day that Cassie – the unofficial “leader” of our little group – ran up to me in a huff outside before school started. “Hey, Nikki,” she said, “I found a real way to get Mary to appear! I already told the others, but we’ve got to meet at the outside bathroom by the pavilions to make it work.” I tried to question, to protest, but the bell had rung and she was already walking away. “Just meet us there, okay?” she called over her shoulder.

The bathroom by the pavilions was the worst. It wasn’t connected to the main school building, so it had no air conditioning and, even worse, no “inside” lights. The only source of light was provided by a single flickering bulb and small grates that allowed the sunlight to filter in, and to top it off, the whole place smelled like a porta-potty. The outside bathroom was truly awful.

But, I did as I was told and met the girls right after the bell rang for lunch. Instead of turning the light off immediately, though, Cassie gathered us all up in front of the row of sinks. Gesturing to the middle sink in the row of five, she said, “I finally figured it out. My brother’s girlfriend came over the other night, and she said that she and her friends were able to see Mary here!”

“And she lived?” “Why here instead of any other mirror?” “What did she say happened?”

Bethany, Nia, and Erica all spoke at once, and Cassie waved a dismissive hand. “She didn’t go into so much detail, because my parents were out and she was going into my brother’s room. But, she said that we first have to acknowledge Mary’s baby, and then it will work.”

“Mary’s… baby?” I asked, not quite understanding but definitely not wanting anything to do with a ghost baby.

“Yeah, that’s what she said. It’ll take a few days but she said it will for sure work.”

“Okay, how do we do it then?” Nia chimed in from the back.


I was already somewhat apprehensive being in the very isolated, very creepy outside bathroom, but I felt my stomach immediately drop when Cassie said, “First, we have to summon Mary’s baby.” My body instantly wanted to flee, and I wish that I had trusted my instincts.

Instead, I stayed silent and let Nia ask, “Wait, I thought that Mary killed her babies, didn’t she?”

“Well, yeah, but in death she still wants them,” Cassie replied. “I guess.”

“Okay, so how do we do this baby thing, and why do we have to do it here?” Erica asked, her nose scrunching up at the smell.

Cassie sighed and said, “I don’t know. Tyler’s girlfriend said something about the baby being born prematurely and being stuffed down this sink without anyone knowing.” Bethany opened her mouth to say something, but Cassie continued, “I know, okay? I know it sounds dumb, but she said it worked, and what we’ve been doing hasn’t, so we can at least try it, right?”

We all shrugged in agreement, and after looking at each of us directly, Cassie began again. “Okay, so first, we have to have the water on, cold water only.” She turned on the tap, then pointed at Bethany, who was closest to the door. “Then, lock the door and turn the light off.”

When Bethany did so, Cassie instructed us all to gather in front of the dirty mirror above the running middle sink. “Okay, now hold your arms like you’re holding a little baby. Look straight into the mirror and rock your arms back and forth while I say the words. We should feel a weight in our arms, and then we have to release ‘it’ over the sink like Mary did. Ready?”

She looked at our reflections in the mirror, gave a nod in response to ours, and began to recite:


“Baby Blue, Baby Blue, Your mommy’s gone away. Baby Blue, Baby Blue, Please come here to stay.

“Baby Blue, we’ll care for you, We’re sorry your mommy could not. Baby Blue, please come to us, We promise that you won’t rot.

“Baby Blue, your mommy’s gone, But we will heal your pain. Baby Blue, please come to us, Your mommy is insane.”

The rhyme itself was disturbing, but even worse was the squeal that rang out from the faucet almost as soon as Cassie had finished her recitations. Surely it was the sound of a whining pipe, but it sounded sort of like a baby crying…

“Now!” Cassie yelled, and we all released our arms and bolted toward the door.

Once safely outside, Cassie looked at us and grinned, “I think it worked! We have to do this again, every day for the next week or so, but I think it worked!” We all looked at each other, unsure if we had all experienced the same thing, and then Bethany spoke up. “What was that sound? Was it the baby or just the pipes?”

Cassie shrugged. “I don’t know, but once we finish this, it’s really going to work! Let’s meet here at the same time tomorrow.” With that, she turned and began walking to the cafeteria, and we all slowly followed.

The next day, we met at the outside bathroom again at the same time. This time, when Cassie turned on the faucet, the squealing began immediately. It truly sounded like a baby crying and I was freaked out immediately, but Cassie shut down my objections and told Bethany to lock the door and turn off the light. As soon as the lights were off I squeezed my eyes shut.


Cassie recited her poem and I tried my best to block out the sound of the crying baby-sounding squeal of the water faucet. What I couldn’t brush off, though, was the weight that I had felt suddenly placed in my cradled arms. When Cassie said, “Now!” I was the first to the door. I tried to ask the girls about it later, but none of them would honestly answer whether or not the pipe sounded like a crying baby, or if any of them had felt the weight in their arms.

We repeated this for the next few days, but I no longer cradled my arms. I may have imagined it, but I did not want to feel that weight again. After Friday’s ritual, Cassie grinned at us all and said, “Monday should be the final one. We’ll finally see Mary!”

We all talked over the phone during the weekend, but Erica was the only one who felt anything similar to the apprehension that I did. She didn’t tell the others, though. Only me. So, when Monday came around, I guess that I wasn’t the only one feeling the growing dread in the pit of my stomach.

The clock ticked by and the anxiety grew worse, until it was finally time. I felt like I was going to vomit. We all met up at the bathroom and followed Cassie in. Her confidence seemed to spread throughout us and while it did help a bit, I felt like the other girls had gotten the majority of it.

I still ended up in front of that mirror, terrified. Cassie turned the sink on, and I didn’t even wait for Bethany to turn the lights off before I closed my eyes. The sound of the baby crying began almost at the same time that Cassie began to recite the poem.

“Baby Blue, Baby Blue, Your mommy’s gone away. Baby Blue, Baby Blue, Please come here to stay.

“Baby Blue, we’ll care for you, We’re sorry your mommy could not. Baby Blue, please come to us, We promise that you won’t rot.

“Baby Blue, your mommy’s gone, But we will heal your pain. Baby Blue, please come to us, Your mommy is insane.”

It felt like the air had been sucked out of the room in an instant and I fought to breathe through the hot thickness. I heard someone whimper softly, Erica maybe, but I refused to open my eyes, and so I couldn’t be sure. I stood completely motionless, with Cassie and Nia on my left, and Bethany and Erica on my right.

The events that followed are something that I only allow myself to think of in my darkest moments, but that will always be imprinted in my mind.

“Drop the baby!” Cassie yelled at the same time that someone on my right began to scream. Shortly afterwards, someone else – I think it was Nia – began to scream as well.

“Drop the baby, now!” Cassie yelled out again, and through the screams, I heard a new sound. It sounded like an old t-shirt being ripped up, but as if the fabric was wet. “No!” someone yelled, and then there was a new sound, a bubbling, gurgling, wet noise.


I wrapped my arms around myself and took a step back away from the other girls. The ripping sound increased in frequency, and the cry of the baby became more shrill.

“Mary…” I heard Cassie mutter, followed by another scream. “My eyes!” someone on my right yelled out, and I couldn’t take anymore. I raced towards the bathroom door, blindly running my hands against it to find the deadbolt. There was a horrible, wet snarling sound behind me, and I had just touched my fingers against the cold metal of the lock, when I felt something grab me by the shoulder, sending a searing pain down my arm before I felt my body being thrown backwards. I must have hit my head because I passed out soon afterwards.

I woke up in the hospital with my parents by my side. We were soon joined by police officers who wanted to talk to me about what had happened. My father tried to protest, “She’s been unconscious for five days and she’s obviously been traumatized! Can’t this wait?”

“Sir, I understand that this is troubling,” the officer replied, “but how would you feel if you were the father of one of the other girls? Please, sir, she may be able to provide crucial information about all of this.”


My father stepped aside with a sigh and let one of the officers approach my hospital bed. “Hi, Nikki,” he said with a soft smile. “I need to ask you about what went on in the bathroom, about what happened to you and your friends. Do you think that you can do that for me?” I nodded slightly before asking, “Did something happen to my friends? Are they okay?”

The officer’s eyes briefly darted away from me, and I continued, “You aren’t going to believe me when I tell you, and I didn’t see anything anyways because my eyes were kept shut the entire time. I really, truly didn’t see anything. I promise. I only… I only heard things.”

The policeman continued smiling warmly and said, “It’s okay, Nikki. Just tell me everything that you heard, then.”

I told him the entire story, about Mary and our ritual, and as I went on my parents’ faces became more horrified. I was embarrassed, and I was ashamed, but mostly I was scared of what may have happened to Cassie and the others. When I had finished describing everything, I asked the officer about my friends. He apologized and said that he wasn’t allowed to discuss it with me. The cops left the room, so I asked my parents the same question and it caused my mom to break out in tears.

I ended up not finding anything out until a few weeks later, when I was checked into an in-patient mental health facility for a mandatory stay of at least 90 days. I had no idea what was going on, but I saw a therapist daily to discuss what went on in the bathroom. After the first few days of me repeating the details over and over during our long session, the therapist finally began to discuss what happened with me.

Some of my friends had been hurt that day. One of them had died. My therapist really wanted me to name which friend had done this to the rest of us, citing my horribly bruised shoulder as proof that someone physically in the bathroom had done this. She wouldn’t accept my explanation of Mary. I’m pretty sure she thought it was Cassie.

Little by little my therapist slipped the details. “I’m sorry, Nikki, but I just can’t accept that something supernatural attacked you and your friends. How, then, could Bethany be blinded but not the others? How could Erica’s cheek be mutilated at nearly the same time? Do you believe that a supernatural being attacked all of you at the same time, but with different attacks? All within just a few minutes? How would that be possible?”

I had no answer.

During another session, she asked, “How then could Nia be murdered directly beside all of you if the same entity was attacking both Erica and Bethany? Are you sure that you didn’t see anything at all?”

And at another, she said, “Nikki, Nia was standing on the farthest left side, right next to Cassie. Her body was cut open in ribbons. You had your eyes closed the entire time. As you’ve said many times, you only recall Cassie saying things related to Bloody Mary and the ritual, as you call it. Would it be possible that Cassie could have moved without you knowing, say, to your right side, where Bethany was? Is it possible that Cassie had something sharp, like a pair of scissors, something to cut both Nia and Bethany?”

The therapist refused to acknowledge anything that I said. She insisted that I must have been ‘confused’ hearing Cassie’s voice on the left and Bethany’s voice on the right at the same time. She said I must have been ‘mistaken’ when I heard the growling, the snarling, and the terrified voices of my friends as I fumbled to find the lock on the bathroom door. That I must have seen something and couldn’t possibly have kept my eyes shut the entire time.

The therapist was an idiot. I continued to tell the truth, and after 90 days I was allowed to go home. I had missed Nia’s funeral, and I soon found out that Bethany and Erica were leaving the state, while Cassie had been charged and held responsible for Nia’s death, and subsequently confined to a psychiatric hospital. My parents chose to homeschool me.

It’s been a decade, and I try not to think about any of this. In fact, I was able to forget about it for a few years. I was able to live my life normally, albeit avoiding mirrors as much as possible, just living my life and getting by. Until Cassie called me a few days ago.

I don’t even know how she found my number, but she’s left a few voicemails now and hasn’t stopped calling. I listened to one voicemail and heard what she wanted, and now I’m trying to convince myself that I want nothing to do with any of it. She has a plan set and I don’t want to be involved. I don’t. However, I have to admit that I have fantasized occasionally about us all going back and performing the ritual, this time with video evidence.

I’ve always wanted to call Bethany and Erica to ask them what they saw, but I never found the courage. A part of me truly wants to know what actually happened that day, wants to try again and keep my eyes open this time. But I honestly don’t think that I could go through it again. Then again…

Credit: N.B. Smith

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Alicia would be mad at me. But screw it. This was too far. My fingers slipped over the screen. “There’s a man standing on my porch, in a mask,” I said, my words coming out as a jumbled string of syllables. As soon as the call ended, the figure shifted. Then it receded, until all that remained was the empty porch. I clicked back to the security camera feed; it, too, showed nothing but the empty porch and the shadows of the front yard. A sharp knock on the door tore me from my thoughts. I looked down to see two figures distorted through the glass: two figures wearing blue uniforms. I let the police in and explained everything. I even showed them the security footage. They scoured the backyard—but they didn’t find anyone. When they finally left, I retreated back into the bedroom. Alicia, thankfully, somehow slept through it all. I locked the door and dragged a dresser over it for good measure. Then I collapsed into the bed. 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She rushed into the room. “Where… where’d you get this mask?” I stuttered, breathless. “It was on our doorstep this morning.” Relief flooded through me. He wasn’t in the house. It was just on the doorstep. My entire body shook as I fell into the chair. “Why don’t you rest for a bit before the party starts?” Alicia said, laying a hand on my shoulder. “I’ll call you down when everyone’s here.” I nodded. Alicia thought I was overreacting. Maybe she was right; maybe I was letting a mischief night prank by some dumb teenager mess with my head. I lay down on the bed, ignoring the dings of my phone on the nightstand, and closed my eyes. It seemed like only seconds passed before Alicia was back in the room, asking me to come downstairs. “Everyone’s here,” she said. “And they want to see you.” I followed her down the stairs. And froze. Every single person in the room wore the mask. Black clothes with that white mask over their faces, covered in splatters of blood. Gaping eye holes, a twisted mouth. I felt dizzy. The room pitched before me, and I gripped the banister for balance. “Ben? Are you okay?” I swayed, trying to steady myself. “Why… why are they all wearing that?” “They said you asked them to.” “What?” “You didn’t?” “No,” I said, as the crowd blurred before me. “They said you left the masks with a note, saying they should wear them to the party. A lot of people canceled because of it. Families with kids, mostly.” She turned to me. “You really didn’t do it?” “Why would I?!” Alicia shrugged. “I don’t know. You were obsessed with this party from the beginning. And the mask. I thought maybe…” She trailed off. “If you didn’t put the masks in their mailboxes, who did?” Him. The man who had been tapping on the window. The man who had been standing on our porch last night. The man who stole my mask. As my mind swirled with questions—who he was, why he’d do this—a memory popped into my head. The promo code, and the “SELECT YOUR SCARE” message. Had I somehow chosen this? I stared into the crowd. Fifty masked faces stared back at me. All identical. Anyone could be him. Or no one. Before I could think, a hand pulled me into the crowd. “Ben, hey! How’s it going?” a familiar voice asked behind the mask. Eddie Huntley, the blond-haired man that lived three houses down the street. “It’s good,” I said, faking a smile. He continued to talk, but I only pretended I was listening. I looked across the crowd. All the masked faces were turned towards each other, bobbing and nodding in conversation. Except for one. Who was staring right at me. I broke away from the conversation. “Hey— hey!” I shouted, pushing through the crowd. His gaping eyes stared back at mine. Soulless. Empty. I grabbed the mask and ripped it off. And stared into the face of Marie Chandler. The wife of my rich, luxury-loving neighbor. “Ben! Great party. Love the masks,” she said in her elegant, soft voice. “Really adds a creepy flavor to the whole thing.” “Th-thanks,” I stuttered. “Hey, have you seen David? It seems I’ve lost him.” I shook my head. She continued staring into the crowd. Ding. My phone chimed. I slowly pulled it out of my pocket and looked at the screen. Motion detected at your doorstep. 8:32 PM. I tapped on the camera feed. There he stood. David? Who else could it be? He was missing, and there was the masked man, standing on my porch. Heart pounding, I fought my way through the kitchen, through the family room, and over to the front door. Now the porch was empty. I opened the door and stared out into the night. But beyond the halo of light the porch created, everything was a murky mess of shadow. I shut the door. The lights flickered. And then they went out. The room plunged into darkness. Shouts and murmurs sounded across the party. Masked faces whirled about in confusion. “Turn the lights back on!” a woman shouted angrily. Cell phone flashlights flicked on, twinkling among the crowd of shadows. Ding. Motion detected at your backdoor. 8:35 PM. I stared at my phone in horror as I heard the back door creak open. Followed by heavy footsteps. I ran through the family room, and into the kitchen. The back door hung open, but he was gone. Blended into the crowd. Stay calm, I told myself. Get the power back on. Then you can deal with finding the culprit. My head pulsed with pain as I considered the two options. Either someone flipped the master breaker… or someone cut the power lines. I decided to check the master breaker first. “Alicia,” I said, fumbling my way in the darkness towards her. Thank goodness she wasn’t wearing a mask like the rest of them. “Keep everyone calm, okay? I’m going to check the breakers in the basement.” “Okay,” she said, biting her lip. “You think maybe the fog machine was drawing too much power?” “Uh… yeah.” No need to get her worried. Using my cell phone as a flashlight, I stumbled to the basement door. I opened it. The stairs loomed before me, stretching into the pitch black below. A shudder ran through me. “Maybe it was just the fog machine,” I muttered to myself, descending the steps one-by-one. We had a menagerie of Halloween decorations out on the lawn, and it was possible that they blew a fuse. Then why would the whole house be without power? I forced the question out of my head and continued down the stairs. I made my way to the breaker box, my footsteps clicking against the cement. The master breaker was flipped. Someone intentionally walked into the basement and flipped the switch. My heart pounded in my chest; my hand shook as I reached out and flipped the switch back. The lights flickered to life, including the lightbulb above my head. For a second, silence. Then someone grabbed me roughly from behind. I whipped around, thrashing against strong arms. A white mask stared back at me, smeared with blood. Gaping, empty eye sockets. I tore away and jumped back. My body collided with my workbench. My eyes scanned it—there was my hammer, lying on the wood. I grabbed it. The figure jumped forward. Laughter echoed from beneath the mask, along with a voice. “I got you this ti—” I lifted the hammer. And smashed it into his skull. The man immediately crumpled. He fell onto the floor, head smacking against the tile. I crouched over him. Then I reached over and pulled the mask off. It was David. Footsteps sounded behind me. Then shouts, then screams. “Call 911!” someone cried. But David was perfectly still. * * * * * * The police carried him out in a body bag. The guests were gone. The masks were strewn across the floor, the couch, every room of the house. A few were completely crushed, stepped on in the chaos. The back door still hung open, letting in gusts of cold October air. I didn’t sleep a wink that night. The image of David’s face burned into my mind. I’d heard his wife explain to the police, in broken sobs, that he’d been planning some sort of prank on me at the party. He hadn’t visited the house, or stalked Alicia; he’d only planned a scare at the party. She didn’t know what it was until the lights went out. He was innocent. I spent half the day sleeping, the other half drunk. When night rolled around, Alicia pulled me off the couch. “Sit out on the porch with me,” she said. “Why?” “It isn’t good for you to be inside all day, like this.” I followed her out, beer in hand. We sat on the back porch, facing the forest. “Ben, you can’t… you didn’t mean to,” she forced out, glancing in my direction. “No. I didn’t mean to.” “The funeral’s in three days. Maybe we should go.” She reached out and squeezed my hand. “I don’t know if I can face Marie,” I said, stumbling over my words. “Or any of them. I—” My words caught in my throat. There, on the edge of the treeline, stood a familiar figure. Dressed in all black. Wearing a white mask splattered with blood. I stood up. Alicia grabbed my hand, but I yanked it away. “Get the hell off my property!” I screamed. The figure didn’t budge. Fueled by alcohol and anger, I leapt off the porch and strode across the backyard. “Ben—please don’t—” Alicia called after me. “Take off your fucking mask!” I screamed, closing in on the figure. He still didn’t move. “A man is dead because of you and your fucking games!” Alicia jogged after me, turning on her cell’s flashlight. “Ben, please, stop!” But I didn’t stop. I didn’t stop until I was inches from his face, until I could smell his sordid breath in the air. “Take off your fucking mask,” I growled. “I want to see who you are, before I smash your stupid little head.” He just stared at me with those gaping eye sockets, plastic mouth twisted into a smile. “Oh, you don’t believe me? You should. I killed someone last night. Smashed his head right in. I’m a murderer now. You hear that?” I leaned in, my face inches from his. “I killed someone because of you! And I’ll kill you, too, if you don’t take that fucking mask off!” He didn’t move. “Fine!” I shouted, spittle flying from my mouth. “I’ll take it off myself, then.” I reached up. Grabbed at his jawline. Pulled. It didn’t come off. I stumbled forward. Grabbed harder. Pulled harder. “No. No, no, no…” I took a step back, my heart pounding. It wasn’t a mask. I watched in horror as his mirthful grin contorted into an angry scowl. “Run!” I screamed, taking off across the grass. Alicia followed, screaming her lungs out. I whipped around to see the figure chasing us full speed across the lawn. I ran as fast as I could. I didn’t stop until I was inside the house, closing the door. That’s when I realized. Alicia had stopped screaming. The backyard was empty—both of them were gone without a trace. Except for Alicia’s phone in the grass. The flashlight shined up towards the sky, shimmering and sparkling in the shadows. * * * * * * I haven’t seen Alicia since that night. It’s been a week. I didn’t attend David’s funeral, though I suppose I am now in the same boat as Marie Chandler. Her husband is gone; so is my wife. The police suspect that I killed David on purpose. After all, our playful little rivalry was well-known among neighbors. They also believe I had something to do with Alicia’s disappearance, and to fill in a motive for me, rumors are flying that Alicia and David were having an affair. I’ve been advised not to leave town. So, as much as I would love to leave this all behind, I’m stuck here. With my guilt. With the past. I leave you with a warning. The masked man—whatever he is—is still out there. And so, I beg you: don’t trust anyone who wears a mask. Who hides their face behind a grotesque facade of plastic. Because it might not be a mask, after all. Credit: Craig Groshek and Blair Daniels
  • "The Promise" Written by Stephanie Scissom The anniversary of Layne’s death wasn’t for another three days, but when “Cochise” came on the radio as I approached that curve, I took it as a sign. Layne’s favorite song. I pressed the gas and shifted gears as Chris Cornell began to wail. The needle on the odometer crept up. 40. 45. 50. The yellow posted warning sign screamed at me, but still I accelerated. The night Layne died, the cops estimated that his friend Jimmy had tried to take this curve doing 65. Fucking Jimmy, the weird little stoner kid from down the street. I hated him, hated his faux hippie parents who changed the flowers around the roadside crosses with the seasons, like Jimmy and Layne and those other kids gave a damn if it was Christmas or Easter anymore. But the Hendricks did it anyway. Now the crosses were decorated with bright orange leaves, for fall. I saw them appear just as I entered the curve, doing 67 mph. The rear of my beat-up Civic began to slip, but I gripped the wheel and held onto it, taking the outside. I kept my gaze focused ahead of the slide, knowing better than to fix on stationary objects. Too late to hit the brakes. Instead, I eased off the gas and turned into the spin at the apex of the turn. My car gave a shimmy and a weird bobble. For one heart-stopping moment, I thought this would be the one that got me. But the Civic held on, even on tires that desperately needed replacing. When I accelerated at the end of the turn and whipped onto the straightaway again, I released the breath I was holding and pulled to the side of the road. I walked back to the place where the four white crosses waited and stared at the name on the first one. Then I ripped the leaves from it. Jimmy Hendricks. They hadn’t even spelled his name right. They hadn’t taught him how to spell his name and they hadn’t taught him how to take a curve. I walked behind the crosses and lay on the ground beside a scarred oak tree, in the same spot that had once soaked up my brother’s blood. I stared up at the September sky and said, “You left me all alone.” The night of the accident, my mother had called to say she’d be working late. Although I was only fourteen months older than Layne, my mother had always left me in charge. As soon as I’d told Layne, he’d started pestering me to go to the movies with Jimmy. I usually let him do what he wanted because Layne could talk the birds from the skies. But my mother’s new boyfriend made me uncomfortable. He stood too close, stared too long. I’d cast a nervous glance at the living room. “Hey,” Layne said. “Go to Sherry’s till nine. I swear I’ll be home by then. I won’t leave you alone with him.” I had nodded, and he’d grinned. I hadn’t smiled back. He’d made me look at him. “I promised Dad and I promise you–I’ll always protect you. I swear on my soul, I’ll never leave you and I’ll always have your back. So, nine o’clock … okay?” But that was a promise he hadn’t been able to keep. When I’d rounded that curve a quarter after nine that night, the EMTs were frantically working to save Layne and one of the other boys. I’d thought maybe they’d known Layne wouldn’t make it to the hospital, because they’d let me have a few precious seconds by his side. His green eyes had been dazed, unfocused. I’d clutched his bloody hand and screamed his name. He’d made a gurgling sound and turned his face toward me. “Hold on, hold on,” I’d begged. “Don’t you leave me! You promised you’d never leave me!” He’d squeezed my hand and then they’d pulled me away. He’d died before they reached the hospital. If Layne had been driving, would he have made the curve? I thought the handling on the Hendricks’ Accord and my Civic probably wouldn’t have been that much different, and Layne had even more experience than I had on the dirt bike track. Unlike me, he hadn’t quit when our father died. But that was just one more ‘what if’ in a towering pile of ‘what ifs’ that loomed high in the sky and meant nothing at all. I pulled into my childhood driveway a few minutes later and sighed. Visits with my mother, never pleasant, grew excruciating around the anniversary of Layne’s death. It hurt to see what this place had become, what my mother had become. Flower beds so meticulously tended when my father was alive were strangled out by weeds, framing a sagging, peeling white house with missing shingles. A rusted swing set still lingered beside the house, unused for over a decade. And the outside of this place wasn’t half as desperate as the inside. I put the car in park, stepped out and adjusted the short skirt that was part of my work uniform before kicking a beer can and scowling at the tall grass. I barged in without knocking and followed the sound of the blaring television to the living room, where my mother’s boyfriend predictably occupied my father’s old recliner. I kicked a pizza box and flinched when a cockroach skittered away from my gleaming black heels. “Where’s Mom?” I asked, and Darius turned his bloodshot eyes on me. He leered, his eyes traveling slowly up my body then down again. “Is that any way to greet me?” “Oh, my bad. Hey, Darius, you fucking pervert. Where is my mother?” He laughed and stood, lurching on his feet. For a moment, I felt the same panic I had at fifteen, but my fingers fumbled in my pocket and closed around the knife I kept there. I forced myself to remain calm. I wasn’t a helpless teenager anymore. “She’s at the cemetery,” Darius said, then licked his lips. “We’ve got time to have a nice little visit. Come say hi to Daddy.” “Stay away from me,” I said. “You got all this time, why don’t you go mow the fucking yard?  Seems like the least you could do, since my mother pays all your bills.” His eyes hardened. “Don’t talk like that to me, you little whore.” Moving faster than I anticipated he could, he lunged at me. My head cracked against the drywall and he seized my chin, forcing me to look up at him. His breath smelled like beer and garlic and I gagged. “I hear you put out for everybody that comes through that bar where you work. I’m getting jealous.” He pressed his filthy, stinking body against mine and tried to push up my skirt, but the knife was already in my hand. His eyes widened when he heard the click of the switchblade. I was sure Darius had been in enough barroom brawls to know what that sound meant. I pressed it against his crotch. “That’s not big enough to kill me,” he hissed. “And if you ever cut me, you’d better fucking kill me.” I smiled. “It’s big enough to get rid of some unsightly bulges. I keep her sharp.” He released my chin and held up his hands. I let him back away. “Tell your mother if she ain’t back by dark, I’m locking her out.” “This isn’t your house,” I snapped. He shot me a baleful look, then slumped back to the recliner. I gulped a breath of fresh air when I stepped outside. I’d left this place as soon as I’d graduated high school and if not for the obligation I felt for my mother, I would never come back at all. The cemetery was visible from the driveway, just over the hillside, but I chose to drive. I could guess what shape my mother was in. I found Mama sprawled on the ground between my father’s and Layne’s graves, a half-empty bottle of Jack in her hands. Once Bella had been beautiful, as her name suggested, but those days were long gone. Her face was ravaged by alcohol, drugs and grief. She looked up with bleary red eyes. “It’s time to go, Mama,” I said, and reached for her arm. She jerked away. “I’m not ready to go yet.” “It’s getting dark and I need to get to work.” “Go then,” she muttered. “I need to make sure you’re home, and that you have your medicine. You want it, right?” Of course, she did. Mama liked her medicine almost as much as her alcohol. After a near overdose last month, I had taken her pills and dispensed them to her on a weekly basis. It really needed to be on a daily basis, but I couldn’t stand the thought of making this trip every day. I suspected Mama went through a week’s supply in a couple of days, but was also pretty sure it would take more than that to kill her. Mama allowed me to help her up. She kissed her fingertips and placed them first on my father’s tombstone, then on Layne’s. “It was your fault,” she told me. I wrapped my arm around my mother’s waist, taking on most of the small woman’s weight. I’d heard comments like that so many times they barely stung anymore. I figured Layne was better off wherever he was, because surely this was hell. I was almost jealous of him. I didn’t put much stock in the afterlife, and the thought of just nothingness sounded pretty damn good to me. We didn’t talk on the way back to my mother’s house. No use telling her about Darius. Mama hadn’t cared when I told her about him seven years ago, and she wouldn’t care now. Another wound that barely stung anymore. I helped her to the front door, gave her the little box labeled with the days of the week, and left. All this crap had taken longer than anticipated and I was nearly ten minutes late when I pulled up to Charlie’s Bar. Half the sign had shorted out, so it simply read Char Bar, which was an apt name for anything that came out of that kitchen. That’s what the locals called it. Charlie hated it, so I called it that, too. I straightened my skirt, flipped and tousled my hair, then undid an extra couple of buttons on my shirt. I was a damn good waitress, but I wasn’t naive enough to think that’s why I got the best tips. When you leave home at seventeen, you learn to play the game to survive. Brody looked up from the bar when I walked in and gave me one of his perfect, dazzling smiles. He was a college kid making a little extra cash while he finished up the school year. Maybe not as spoiled as most of the ones who came through–he actually worked–but a rich boy just the same. He’d be gone before the ink dried on his diploma. The bar was a weird mix of college kids, locals and stragglers off Interstate 24. They segregated themselves in odd little clumps. I edged past a rowdy group of bikers and headed toward the bar. Brody placed a bag of lemons on the bar and said loudly, “Thanks for picking these up. Sorry I made you late.” “No problem,” I said, taking his cue. Charlie came around the corner. He looked at me, the bag of lemons and finally Brody. “Tell Jacobs if he can’t get the order right, I’ll take my business elsewhere.” Brody tapped a salute off his forehead and Charlie frowned, but he disappeared back to the kitchen without another word. “Thanks,” I said, and he smiled again. He really was handsome. I liked the way his blue eyes crinkled in the corners when he grinned. But we were so different I wasn’t even sure if we’d count as the same species. “You’ve got even tables. I already did their drinks. Two and eight have ordered. Six was still looking at the menu.” He was always helping me. Every shift, he stayed late to help me roll silverware and refill ketchup bottles, though that was not part of his duties. I’d never admit it, but sometimes the most fun I had all day was when we were cleaning up. He’d put some stupid song on the jukebox and sing to me. Sometimes we’d dance. Even though he probably just wanted what every other guy who tried to talk to me wanted, at least he was nice about it. Unlike the biker at table three, who was yelling to get my attention. “Hey, Blondie!” he shouted. “Get that sweet ass over here and take my order. I’m thirsty.” Kristy, the other waitress on shift that night, stood helplessly by, trying to take his order, but the biker would have none of it. I motioned her forward. “Take my six,” I said. “I’ll handle it.” Looking relieved, Kristy scurried away. I pasted on a smile and sauntered over to the table. I spoke to the one making all the noise, a muscular dark-haired man with a snake tattoo that started at his neck and ended with rattles down his middle finger. “What can I get you?” He leaned back in his chair and gave me an appreciative smile. Fishing his wallet from his pocket by the chain attached to his belt loop, he withdrew two one hundred dollar bills and placed them beneath the salt shaker. “Two buckets of Bud to start. One of these is for the tab, one is for you if you don’t let us run dry till that hundred is gone. Understand, sweet thing?” “Sure thing, honey,” I drawled, and his grin widened. As I walked away, I heard him tell his buddies, “Tell me that ain’t the best ass in Tennessee.” I rolled my eyes and made a face at Brody, who stood tense at the bar, watching the exchange. “Two buckets of Budweiser,” I said. “Avery, that’s not your table. You don’t have to serve those guys.” “I can take care of myself, Brody.” He frowned, but turned to fix the buckets without another word. Sweet of him to worry, but unnecessary. Plus, that tip would be great, considering rent was due this week. I might actually be able to eat something that didn’t come from the Char Bar. When I returned to the table, I noticed a cell number scrawled on one of the bills. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes again and instead, engaged in some banter with them. When I walked away, Rattlesnake slapped my ass. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Brody start to come around the bar and I hurried to head him off. “I said, I can take care of myself,” I hissed. “Do not go over there.” His blue eyes flashed. “Avery, you’re not a piece of meat. He has no right to touch you.” “I don’t mind.” He scowled and threw a dish towel behind the bar. “Maybe you should.” Yeah, maybe I should. Maybe I should do a lot of things. But these days, it was hard to feel much of anything. Finally, the bikers left and the crowd thinned. After I took table four their check, I stepped outside to smoke. When I heard the back door creak open a moment later, I flicked my ashes and said, “If I just fuck you, will you stop following me around like some little damn dog?” Brody sighed, leaned back against the wall, and squinted at me. * * * * * * I clutched the shoulders of the man who labored over me. His snake tattoo looked even more sinister covered in a fine sheen of sweat. But I wasn’t thinking about that, wasn’t even thinking about him. Sex was just a release for me. There were never any feelings attached. Maybe that was why Brody’s words troubled me so much. I closed my eyes, remembering what he’d said. “Jeez, Avery. Why are you such a hardass?  Maybe I just care about you.” I snorted. “You don’t know anything about me.” “I want to,” he said. “One chance. Let me take you out on a date.” A date. I nearly snorted again. I hadn’t been on a real date since high school. One night stands with strangers hardly counted. Brody had no idea. “Why would you want to date me?’ I demanded. He gave me that crooked grin and shrugged. “I dunno… because sometimes you forget to be an asshole?” I laughed in spite of myself. “I think you’re afraid of me,” he said. “I think you know I’d be good to you, and you don’t know how to handle that.” “I’m not relationship material,” I said, and took another drag of my cigarette. “You could be. With me.” I stubbed my cigarette out and gave him a patient smile. “You think we’re alike. We’re not.”  I pointed through the window at a group of roughnecks. “I’m like them. White trash, going nowhere.” Then I pointed at a group of giggling college girls waiting around the bar for Brody’s return. “You’re one of them. You’ll leave here after you graduate, marry a girl like that, named Mallory or Ashley or Tiffany and forget about this little dive bar you worked in during college. You’ll forget about me. I don’t mean anything to anyone.” “You’re wrong,” he said. “You mean something to me.” * * * * * * The biker collapsed on top of me and I sighed, glad he was finally finished. I’d hoped he could take my mind off things, but now I regretted even coming to his motel room. He rolled onto his back, and I lay there, thinking. Waiting until I thought he’d dozed off. Then I eased away from him and fumbled for my clothes in the dark. His hand shot out and grabbed me, pulling me back. “Where you think you’re going?” he asked, slurring. “I need to get home,” I said, and tried to pull away. “Aw, no,” he said. “We ain’t finished yet, darlin. Just taking a breather.” “I’m finished,” I said. “Let me up.” In the dark, I didn’t see the fist swinging around at me. He clocked me in the side of the face and I fell back, stunned. His hands closed around my throat and I kicked and flailed at him, but he was so strong. My last thought before I lost consciousness wasn’t of Layne, but of Brody. Of how disappointed he’d be when they found my naked, battered body in some cheap motel tomorrow. I’d tried to tell him. I was no good. Guess he’d finally see that. * * * * * * I woke up on my stomach, my cheek pressed against stiff white sheets. It took me a moment to remember where I was, but I was smart enough not to move until I got my bearings. I hurt. I hurt all over, especially my throat. What had he done to me? I needed to cough. My throat burned, tickled. My eyes watered and I didn’t know how long I’d be able to suppress it. I heard his labored breathing beside me. Sounded like he was out, but I didn’t dare turn my head. Instead, I strained to see in the dim room, looking for a weapon. He’d left the bathroom light on. I saw the contents of my purse strewn across the worn carpet. My wallet gaped open. Empty. Motherfucker. I gritted my teeth and made a push toward the edge of the bed. I paused, but detected no change in his breathing. I forced myself up on shaky legs and fumbled on my clothes. Stuffing my things back into my purse, I realized my money wasn’t the only thing missing. So was my knife. The smart thing would’ve been to slip out the door and run. But I needed my money. Not just the $100 tip, but the other $170 he’d taken from my wallet. I crept to his side of the bed and unplugged the lamp. When I tried to lift it, I found it was bolted to the table, so I unplugged the phone instead. Then I searched until I found his wallet. I thought about just taking my part of the money, but I thought, fuck it, and took it all–my money, plus two hundred or so. He began to stir. I gripped the phone and crashed it down on his head. He cursed, and I hit him again. Then I ran. The morning sunlight nearly blinded me, and for one terrifying moment, I couldn’t find my keys. “Please, please, please,” I gasped, fumbling in my purse. There they were. I jumped in my car, still watching the motel door, but it never opened. I didn’t kill him, I thought. Surely I didn’t kill him. I was nearly a mile away when I caught my reflection in the rearview mirror. Blood spattered my face. I hadn’t even felt it. “Oh, God!” I said, and fumbled in my glove compartment for napkins. Twenty minutes later, I stood in front of my bathroom mirror, trying to figure out what to do. Ugly red bruises stood out against the pale skin of my throat. Even the whites of my eyes were red. Maybe I should go to the police. It was self-defense, right? I decided to drive back to the motel. To my relief, his bike was gone when I got there. For two days, I never left my apartment. The next night, however, I had to work. I almost called in. This was the anniversary of Layne’s death. I might not make it until tomorrow anyway. But with my luck, I’d probably survive. Again. I tried to cover up the bruises with makeup, but that somehow made them look worse. I washed it off, then tied a scarf around my neck. It looked dumb, but I couldn’t think of anything else. At least my red eyes had cleared up. Brody gave me a long look when I walked into the bar. Change of shift was busy and I managed to avoid him until my first smoke break. He followed me outside. “That biker guy’s been looking for you,” he said. “Oh?” I said, and he frowned at the rasp in my voice. “I told him you’d quit. When he came back the next night, I told him you’d still quit. Charlie backed me up. He looked pretty rough. Not as rough as you, though.” Before I knew it, he pushed me against the wall and reached for the scarf. “What are you doing?” I asked, trying to force his hands away. “I haven’t seen anyone wear an ascot since Fred on Scooby-Doo.” The scarf came free in his hands. “Jesus, Avery!” he said, and I felt absurdly near tears at the horror in his eyes. When I didn’t speak, he said, “That guy said you took his money. What are you into, Avery?  Is it drugs?” He looked away. “Prostitution?” A tear slid down my cheek. “Is that what you think of me?” I shook my head and pushed past him. He tried to grab my arm, but I jerked away. I walked through that back door, through that restaurant, and out the front. I heard Brody call my name, but I never slowed down. Maybe fate would be kind tonight. * * * * * * I wanted to die. More than anything. I kept picturing the look on Brody’s face. He was the only one who’d believed in me, the closest thing I had to a friend. Now he thought I was some sort of crack whore. By the time I hit the curve, I was doing 70. When the rear end came around and I started to spin, I closed my eyes and pictured Layne’s face. Suddenly, his voice filled my head, shouting instructions, as clear as if he were in the seat beside me. When I opened my eyes again, my car was sitting neatly on the side of the road, just past the white crosses. I opened my door and nearly fell out onto the shoulder. I half-stumbled, half-crawled over to the memorial and collapsed in front of Layne’s cross, sobbing. “Avery!  Avery, are you okay?” I rolled onto my back and tried to scramble away. Brody fell to his knees beside me and reached for me. “Hey, it’s me!” I slapped his hands. “What are you doing here? Why are you following me?” “What just happened?” He looked at the crosses. His gaze lingered on Layne’s. “What is this place?” “My brother died here.” I never talked about my personal life. Ever. But once I started talking, I couldn’t stop. I told Brody everything, about Layne, about Darius, my mother … even about rattlesnake guy. When I finally stopped, I was afraid to look at him. Now he would know I was trash, just like I’d tried to tell him. He wrapped his arms around me. I froze for a moment, then sagged against him. His arms tightened around me. “What happened to Layne was not your fault. Why would you think that?” “I was the oldest. I was in charge. We were supposed to stay home.” “You were kids, Avery. This wasn’t anyone’s fault.”  He paused. “What I just saw, with the curve … you do that every year?” I didn’t answer. He kissed the top of my head. “You are the strongest person I’ve ever known.” I gave a strangled laugh. “I’m weak. When I went into that curve tonight, I wanted to die. I’m so alone, Brody.” He gave me a fierce hug. “You are not alone. Not anymore. Let’s get out of here, okay?  We’re going back to my place.” I wasn’t sure what showed on my face, but he shook his head. “Not for that. I’m not letting you stay alone tonight.” He stood and reached to help me up. I took his hand. He smiled and hauled me to my feet. I brushed a kiss on my fingertips and pressed it to Layne’s cross, then slid under the arm Brody offered. His place wasn’t much bigger than mine, though his furniture was better. I’d muddied my clothes, so he found me one of his shirts and a pair of drawstring shorts to put on. We talked for hours, about my family, about his. I learned that money didn’t necessarily buy a happy childhood. Even when there was nothing left to say, I felt comfortable. Safe. I hadn’t felt that in years. I fell asleep with my head on his shoulder. I woke sometime later, lying on the couch. Brody lay beside me, spooning my back, his arms around me. When I stirred, he mumbled, “Don’t go.” Lying there, wrapped in the heat of his body, breathing in his scent, I didn’t want to go. I twisted around and kissed him. He kissed me back, rolling on top of me. But when I reached to tug his shirt over his head, he stopped me. “Avery-” “Please,” I said. “I want this.” He led me to his bedroom. That night, I broke one of my rules–I didn’t leave. I woke the next morning and reached for him. His side of the bed was empty. I snagged a t-shirt off the floor and went to search for him. I found him in front of the stove, singing and dancing in his boxers, making breakfast. I pressed my fingertips to my lips, but failed to suppress my smile. Apparently, he didn’t hear my approach. I witnessed a rather inspired performance of Prince’s song, “Kiss.” I laughed, feeling happy for the first time in a long time. He whirled, but didn’t seem embarrassed. He placed a plate of pancakes on the table and seized me, dancing me around his tiny kitchen. “Good morning, beautiful,” he said. “Good morning.” I glanced at the plates of food covering the kitchen table and raised an eyebrow. “You having company over?” “Ha. Ha.” Sunlight streaming through his kitchen window made his eyes look blue and bright as a June sky. “Baby, I am hungry!” He winked at me and said, “And maybe I wanted to impress you a little.” I grinned and draped my arms around his neck. “Oh, I’m impressed. Mostly that you have this much food in your house, considering we both work at the same place.” I winced. “Well, maybe we used to. I guess maybe we’re fired.” “I took care of it. I talked to Charlie, told him you had an emergency and it’s all good. We have tonight off, too.” “What?” I gasped. “Charlie hates me.” “No, he doesn’t. You never miss work. Besides, how would he replace both of us?” “You’re amazing.” He smiled. “So… since we have tonight off, how about that date?” “Date?” “You know … dinner, dancing? Something besides burned corn dogs and dancing around the jukebox at Char Bar.” ‘’But that’s my favorite.” “I know. I may have set the bar too high, but I’ll do my best to impress you.” “You already impress me.” And he did. Brody was a nice guy. A good man. When I found out I was pregnant six weeks later, he didn’t say, “Are you going to keep it?” or “Is it mine?” He said, “Marry me.” “Brody, I don’t know if it’s yours. I won’t put this on you if it’s not yours.” “I don’t care if it is. It will be. We will never know any differently, and the baby won’t either. I love you, Avery. We can be the parents we always needed. Marry me.” But I couldn’t. Not without knowing. I talked to my doctor and he scheduled an amniocentesis when I was far enough along. The day we met the doctor to discuss the results, I was a wreck. I’d given up cigarettes the day I learned I was pregnant, and my nerves were shot. I’d been unable to sleep that night and, while staring into Brody’s face in the moonlight, I’d made a decision. If the baby was his, I’d marry him, and I’d do my damnedest to be a good wife and mother. If it wasn’t, I’d leave in the middle of the night and never look back. I was not going to tie him to another man’s child. Brody tried to make small talk while we waited, but I couldn’t hold up my end. Both me and my baby had so much to lose. I wanted Brody to be the father so badly. Not for his money, or even his support. One day, this child would want to know about its father. I did not want to have to tell it that I didn’t even know his name. The doctor looked at Brody and held out his hand. “Congratulations, Dad.” Brody’s grin lit up that office. He pumped the doctor’s hand and then turned to hug me. So, I agreed to marry him. On our wedding day, Brody punched his best friend in the face for telling him he couldn’t turn a whore into a housewife. Maybe he was right. I didn’t know. All I knew was that I would do my best not to let him down. Not to let either of them down. I didn’t know if I was capable of love, but the day I looked into Brody’s shining eyes over that surgical mask when he held our son for the first time, I knew I loved them both. I couldn’t say it, however, but I hoped he knew. He stood by my side when I cut ties with my mother. My son was my priority now. I could no longer try to help someone who wasn’t interested in helping herself. I also would never have my child around Darius. Lucas was a difficult baby. Brody and I learned how to live on little sleep. A colicky infant stage progressed to night terrors by age three. That was the age he began to talk a lot more, and also when I started to suspect there was something terribly wrong with my son. One night, as he played with one of his toy cars, he looked at Brody and said, “His name is Dale.” Brody glanced at the black car with the number three on the door and looked at Lucas in surprise. “Yeah, that’s Dale Earnhardt’s car. How did you know that?” Lucas shrugged and said, “My other dad told me.” Brody stared at me. “Other dad?” I shrugged, but I saw the tension in his face. “Who’s your other dad, Lucas?”  he asked. Lucas wouldn’t answer. “Can I see you in the kitchen?” I asked. “You can’t turn a whore into a housewife, right?” I said, when we were out of Lucas’ earshot. He reached for me and I jerked away. “I’ve never cheated on you. I’ve never even considered it. I … care about you.” Brody sighed. “I know you do. I’m sorry. It just … caught me off-guard, I guess.” He pulled me to him and this time I didn’t fight it. “I love you, Avery. And I know you love me, too. I only wish you could say it.” I did, too. There was this feeling that, if I did, something horrible would happen. One night, while Brody lay across my lap, I traced the words on his back with my fingertips. I thought he was sleeping, but he kissed my thigh and said, “I love you, too.” My mother called me a week before the tenth anniversary of Layne’s death, begging to see Lucas. She told me she’d been clean for two years, and that she’d kicked Darius out the same day I had told her goodbye. I told her I’d think about it and disconnected the call. That night, I pulled down an old photo album from the closet.  I’d stolen it from my mother’s house before I moved out. Lucas climbed into my lap and Brody looked over my shoulder while I flipped through it. Lucas pointed at a picture of a 10-year-old Layne and said, “That’s me.” “No … honey, that’s your Uncle Layne. He’s in heaven now.” Lucas ignored me, poring over the pictures with an intensity rarely seen in the rambunctious toddler. He pointed at another picture. “That’s my old dad.” “That’s my dad,” I said. He looked at me with his bright blue eyes and said, “I know, Mommy.” That week, Brody called me from a restaurant parking lot. I heard Lucas in the background, having a meltdown. They’d been fishing and stopped to get lunch. “Hey, honey,” Brody said. “Do you want us to bring you something?” “I’m good. Why’s he crying?” “You’ll never believe it. He’s crying because the waitress took away his corn cob.” “His… what?” “A corn cob. He started screaming that he wanted me to make him a pizza pie or something, like his old dad did.” Lucas screamed in the background. “Piece pie! Piece pie!” “Do you have any idea what he’s talking about, babe?” “No, none.” But something was there. Some memory tugged at the back of my mind. Brody sighed. “Okay, well … we’ll be home in about an hour. I love you.” He hung up instead of waiting on the reply he knew wasn’t coming. I stared at my phone, then impulsively called my mother. “Mom, I have a weird question. About Layne.” “Okay,” my mother said slowly. “Did Dad ever make something for him, out of corn cobs?” “Yeah. He made these pipes, out of dried out corn cobs and sticks. Layne thought he was big stuff, clamping it between his teeth and walking around like Popeye.” “I don’t remember that.” “Well, you were a girl. Your father didn’t believe in little girls even pretend smoking.” “Did he call them something?” “He called them peace pipes. He’d grab his cigarettes, hand Layne his pipe and say, ‘Come on, son, let’s go smoke our peace pipes.’ Why do you ask?” This was not something I wanted to run by my mother. “An old memory, I guess.” They made small talk. My mother told me about the latest sobriety coin she’d earned and said, “Avery, I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry I didn’t believe you about Darius. I–” “Mom, I have to go,” I said. “I’ll call you later.” Some things I wasn’t ready to forgive, or even talk about. Rummaging through the freezer, I took an ear of corn from a freezer bag and boiled it. Then I shaved the corn from it with a knife and placed the cob on the back porch to dry. I made a pipe and sat it on the entertainment center. Lucas didn’t notice it until that afternoon, after supper. He yelled, “Piece pie! Piece pie!” until Brody followed his gaze and got it down. He shot me a questioning look, then handed it to Lucas. Lucas stuck the end of it in his mouth and beamed at them. That night after I put him to bed, Brody and I discussed it. “What are you saying?”  he asked. “I know it’s odd, but you don’t really think–” “I don’t know,” I admitted. “But he says such strange things sometimes.” Even Brody had no explanation for what happened later that week. They were talking, laughing, on the way to the zoo. I was driving. In the backseat, Lucas said, “Mama!” Brody was in the middle of the story he was telling, so I glanced in the rearview mirror at Lucas, but didn’t reply. “Mama!” he cried again, then, “Dammit, Timmy, I said stop!” I slammed on the brakes, and was nearly rear-ended by the car behind us. It swerved around us. Brody and I looked at each other, then at Lucas. The blare of a horn jerked my attention back to the front. I looked up just in time to see the car that passed us sail through a green light and get T-boned by a semi. Metal screamed. The semi carried the little red car through the stoplight and crashed into a pickup on the other side. “Call 911!” Brody shouted and bailed out of the car. Shaking, I did as instructed. When I disconnected the call, I twisted to look at Lucas and said, “What did you call me?” He looked out the window. “Lucas, answer me! Why did you call me Timmy?” “That’s your name.” Nearly an hour passed before they could leave the scene. Brody climbed back in the car, shaken. I asked him about the people in the car and he shook his head. Lucas lay slumped in his car seat, asleep. “What just happened, Avery?”  he asked. “Do you realize if you hadn’t stopped–if Lucas hadn’t screamed–that would’ve been us. That light was green.” I burst into tears, and he grabbed me. I buried my face against his neck and sobbed. I waited until we were home, until Lucas was watching cartoons in another room, to pour myself a drink and sit at the kitchen table with Brody. “Did you hear what he called me?” I asked. Brody gave a puzzled laugh. “Uh, Timmy? Jimmy?  To be honest, I was more concerned about the other word he said.” “I asked him why he called me Timmy and he said that was my name. Brody, no one’s called me that since my dad died.” He reached for my glass and took a long swallow. “Your dad called you Timmy?” Tears stung my eyes. “I was that kid, you know … the kid who was always getting into trouble, always getting hurt, or stuck, or something. Layne would always run for help. My dad would look at my mom, sigh, and say, ‘Look, honey, here comes Lassie. Guess Timmy’s fallen into the well again.’  How would Lucas know that?” Brody looked at me for a long moment, then at his lookalike son playing in the living room. He shook his head. “I don’t know. Maybe he said something else. Maybe we misunderstood.” “He said Timmy. I know he said Timmy. But even if he didn’t, why was he screaming at me to stop?  He couldn’t have seen that truck.” “Did you ask him?” “I did, but he wouldn’t answer me.” Brody called their son into the kitchen. “Lucas, why did you call your mom that name in the car?” The boy dropped his head. “It’s her name.” “Who said that was her name?” “My old dad.” I felt Brody’s eyes on me, but I was watching Lucas. “Why did you yell at me to stop?” Lucas looked at his shoes. “Cause I’m supposed to protect you.” I closed my eyes. In my head, I heard Layne say, “I’ll always protect you.” I began to cry. “Mommy, don’t,” Lucas pleaded, tugging at my sleeve. I found I was afraid to look at him. “Why don’t you go play, Bud?” Brody said. I opened my eyes and stared at my husband. He looked as scared and confused as I felt. After that day, Lucas didn’t speak of his old dad, and after a couple of months, I almost forgot. He was just Lucas again, a handsome little boy with eyes as blue as a June sky and a cowlick in the crown of his head, like his father. That fall, I decided I wanted to visit my mother and put flowers on Layne’s grave. Brody wanted to go with me, but I told him it was something I needed to do alone–at least the first time. Lucas was asleep when we passed the curve going in. Yellow leaves decorated the white crosses. This time, I didn’t mind. When I pulled up at my childhood home, I was surprised to see the yard neatly kept and the flowerbeds exploding with color. my mother sat in a chair on the front porch. She walked out to greet us and stood by the car while I roused my sleeping son. “Oh, my!” my mother said, placing a trembling hand to his cheek. “Avery, he’s beautiful.” Lucas blinked at the older woman and his small face creased in a frown. “You look … different.” “Different from what?” my mother asked with a laugh. “Did you show him pictures?” I looked at Lucas and thought of Layne. Of how different he’d think our mother looked. The past eleven years had not been kind. “Come in,” my mother said. “I made lunch.” “Mommy, no,” Lucas whispered. “The bad man–” My blood ran cold, but I patted my son’s back and whispered, “The bad man is gone.” The rest of the visit passed uneventfully, though Lucas was unusually quiet and clung to my side. At least until we walked to the cemetery. He ran ahead of us, chasing a butterfly. But he stopped and ran his fingers over the etching of one tombstone. I realized it belonged to Jimmy Hendricks. He paused and gave it a thoughtful look, then he ran ahead. He stopped at Layne’s grave. My mother shot me a surprised look, but I ignored her. Lucas played around the tombstones for a while, but he grew increasingly agitated and whiny. “Mom, I need to go,” I said finally. On the way out, Lucas began to cry as they approached the curve. “Timmy, stop!” he said softly. Without hesitation, I pulled over. I unbuckled my seatbelt, then extracted Lucas from his car seat. Hand in hand, we walked over to the row of crosses. Lucas sat on the ground, in the spot where I had watched my brother take his last breath. my son looked up at me tearfully. “I’m sorry, Mommy. I fell asleep and I couldn’t find you when I woke up. I got lost.” “It’s okay,” I whispered, feeling the tears slip down my cheeks. “It’s not,” he insisted. “I promised to protect you.” I folded the small boy in my arms. “You did more than that. You saved me.” “You forgive me?” “Of course,” I said, squeezing him tight. “You saved me.” And he wasn’t the only one. Brody worked late that night. Lucas had been in bed for hours when I saw his headlights turn into the drive. I ran out to meet him. “Is everything okay?” he asked. “I love you!” I blurted. He stared at me for a long moment, then he gave me one of those dazzling smiles. “Say it again.” I did, then I kissed him. Lucas’s night terrors stopped after that night, and he never mentioned his old life again. I hoped Layne had somehow found peace, because at last I had. Credit: Stephanie Scissom ( Facebook • Reddit ) � � MORE STORIES FROM AUTHOR : STEPHANIE SCISSO M
  • "Dead Boats" Written by Jeff Hartin I worked a shrimp boat called the Melissa on the gulf. Hot, sweaty work but all the shrimp you can eat, so there’s that. Captain Mike was my boss, a wizened old salt. Rough around the edges, but a good man and a good boss. I worked with him out on the open waters for years before we split. Here’s what happened. So one day we were out. Early, in an attempt to beat the other boats and get a good haul. I start cranking up the nets, position them over the collecting bin and let them go. Whole shit-ton of shrimp this morning. Today is going to be a good and profitable trip at this rate. I look up at the nets and I see something caught up in it. Probably driftwood, but I gotta get it down or it’ll rip the nets. I drop them down so I can pull it off. It’s definitely not driftwood. I don’t know what it is. It looks like a small arm. Like a child’s arm but it’s not. It’s a mottled green with brown flecks, but the texture almost seems like sharkskin. Thin, long fingers, almost five inches long. I almost can’t call them fingers. They’re webbed to one another with a thin layer of skin, almost translucent in the sun. I’ve never seen anything like it. Short pointed claws where fingernails would be in a person. I look down to the end of the arm and I see it’s been twisted and broken caught in the nets. At the end, it looks like it was sawed or gnawed off in a hurry, by something dull. Dark red blood drips off it, pooling on the deck. I must’ve been in a trance staring at the odd thing, because the next thing I remember is Captain Mike screaming at me. “GET THAT FUCKING THING OFF THE BOAT RIGHT NOW!” I snap and quickly work it free, tossing it in the water as fast as I can. Some of the blood stains my hands and my shirt, but I rinse it off. Not the first time something’s bled on me out here. As I clean up I realize that Mike has turned the boat around. We’re heading back to port. It’s not even 10 and he’s calling it a day? I have bills to pay, and maybe a hundred pounds of shrimp ain’t gonna cut it. I’m about to have a few words with the Captain but one look at him and I see something is clearly off. He keeps glancing at the sides of the boat as he speeds up. While I’m tidying up I see him pull out the emergency flare gun and check it, pulling out the extra flares too. I guess this isn’t the time to bother him. We get back, and as I finish up Mike comes over to me and palms me $400. Hell of a lot more than I’d make normally. As I take the money, his hand grabs mine tightly and he pulls me in. “Today’s a short day. The extra is for you to keep quiet about why we had a short day.” “Alright, see you tomorrow?” He lets my hand go, and starts looking to the water. He seems lost, uneasy. This is a man who spent his whole damn life on a boat. I feel uncomfortable just seeing how uncertain he is. “Yeah, I guess. Go out and have a few drinks, I know I will.” Odd morning, but with pay like this, I hope I find one of those arm-things every damn day. That evening I find myself at the local bar. Closest one to the waterfront, where all the working stiffs congregate. We’ve been buying rounds for a few hours, bullshitting around about work and sex and general nothings. I’ve got a pretty good load on, and my curiosity gets the better of me. I ask in a low tone, “So what’s the strangest thing you’ve ever brought up in the nets? And don’t fuckin’ say tires. I mean a whole car would be weird but a tire’s like all the time.” I get a couple of answers: Will once found one of those inflatable sex dolls. Rick found a box with a whole set of Encyclopedia Britannicas. John found not one individual but a pair of boots. Not that that’s odd. What was odd is that they were his exact size. Hell, he was even wearing them. I push a little further, “Yeah, but you ever see anything like unnatural? Like you couldn’t explain it?” I get a chorus of “Nahs.” But Kirk suddenly gets real quiet, and starts staring intently at the sweat beading off his glass. I think I got all I can now, information wise. Now for a couple more beers. I’m flush today. My alarm goes off dutifully at 7:30 the next morning, and I dutifully go off at my alarm in a swarm of profanity. My head feels like it’s going to explode. I wish it would. I dutifully crack open a club soda, swallow some ibuprofen, and turn up a hot shower. By 8:00 I’m recovering and on my way to the docks. I wander up to the Melissa, Captain Mike’s boat. He’s muttering something under his breath staring at the deck. The deck’s been all scratched to hell. Deep long rakes intently scratching all over the place. Most of them seeming to congregate where the nets release. Where the blood spilled yesterday. I stand behind Mike for a couple of minutes until he acknowledges me. “Not going out today. Not like this. Sorry.” “Alright, but I gotta work, you know? I’m gonna ask around see if anyone else is short a deckhand.” “Do what you gotta do. See you tomorrow?” “Yeah, sure.” I luck out and find another boat short a man. I like Mike, worked with him for years. But I work for paper, not a man. If he doesn’t get his shit together I’ll have to find another ship. We have an uneventful day out on the other ship. I’m at the docks again, 8 AM sharp. Captain’s got a whole load of bleach and cleaners. I wonder what’s up. “I’ll pay you double if you help me lathe the scrapes off, bleach down the whole thing and refinish the deck. These scrapes and stains are bad for the boat.” Shit, that’s a lot of work. But double pay is double pay. Mike might be losing it, but I won’t stop him from paying that much. I agree. It’s a long day, much harder than our usual trips out. Still, profitable. Before I leave Mike asks me to help him pull down the nets. That request stands out to me, as they’re a bitch to move, heavy and unwieldy. You usually only do it if you’ve got a rip or something but these are perfectly good. As I leave I see Mike pile them up on the beach, pour some diesel on top, and light them up. Doesn’t make any sense, burning good nets like that. And why burning? After working my hands and back that hard, I need a beer. I head out to the bar. I spot Kirk at the bar and fall in next to him. We talk a bit, starting with the weather. For other people that may sound like tepid conversation, but out on the water it’s vital information. Eventually, I get enough in me and we start talking about our boats; bitchin’ about the bosses. It starts off as a good-natured pressure release. But when I start bitching about all the extra work I had to do today with the deck and the nets Kirk cuts me off abruptly, “He’s not crazy. You need to find another boat, maybe somewhere a little further up the coast.” That’s all I get out of him. He’s like a stone wall after that. I’d assumed Mike had spent a few too many years under the sun, baking his brains. But Kirk is usually pretty good with advice. Still, the next morning I head in to talk to Mike. We finish restoring the decks, now he’s on talking about possible residue on the sides of the propellers. Says he wants to scrape those down next. This is crazy! It’s way beyond a two-man job. You need to dry dock a boat for all he wants. It’s the start of the season, and I know he doesn’t have enough cash lying around for that. I spend the day trying to pressure wash the sides of the boat as a cheaper fix. The end of the day, Mike slips me a few hundred dollars, and looks me right in the eye. “I don’t want to go out there. Not with the ship like this. It’s not ready.” “Alright, but if there’s no work for me, I need to look elsewhere.” “I understand. It’s been good.” He gives me a firm handshake, and looks me right in the eye. Something is welling behind those eyes but he fights it back. He turns to organize up the ropes. I notice that he’s got a heavy revolver clipped to his side. It’s not unusual for a boat to have a gun on board, but a hand cannon on your person? I’m starting to really worry about Mike. This is not normal behavior. I’m not sure if I can talk about this to anyone just yet. I flounder a bit but find a job after a few days. I still see Captain Mike cleaning off the Melissa every day when I go to the docks. He’s there scrubbing when I leave, and he’s still scrubbing when I get back. There are new scrapes all over the hull, like something was scratching its way climbing up. Mike’s become a pariah on the docks, no one wants to talk about it and when they do it’s in low hushed tones. Eventually, Captain Mike decides Melissa is finally clean. Or he can’t afford to go on without another day’s bounty. He hires Carlos, the new guy on the docks and they go out. I make a point of breaking the silence and talk to Mike to check in after they return at the end of the day. They’ve been catching much less than usual, like half if not worse. Still, he’s getting back out on the water, and that’s gotta be good for him. Carlos says he’s been a little freaked out by the sharks that seem to tail them. I try to put him at rest, tell him sharks aren’t that big a deal, they’re really just opportunistic bastards. I lie and make him feel a little better. Is that really a lie? One day the Melissa doesn’t come back. I wait at the docks searching the horizon. It gets dark. Mike doesn’t usually stay out this late. I go to the bar and try to drink my body weight in vodka. Weeks later, another captain finds the Melissa floating a few miles out to sea. I wasn’t there, so the rest is hearsay and rumor. The police report is still sealed. Apparently, it was a bloodbath. Blood dried onto the decks, most of it right under the nets. Pieces of viscera scattered everywhere, at least the pieces the seagulls hadn’t eaten. The pilot room saw some of the worst of it. Just guts spread everywhere, some tufts of hair and skin too, like someone was flayed by somebody who either didn’t know what they were doing or was too enthusiastic to do it right. Mike used to sit there when we were out. Mike’s revolver was found there too. Four shots fired, but no idea if anyone was hit. Who could even tell whose blood belonged to who? In the deck, they found a long piece of metal embedded deep in the wood. Looked like it was a piece of an old boat anchor. It had been crudely sharpened. The investigation wrapped up (definitely foul play was the conclusion). Maritime law says that dead boats found at sea become the property of whoever finds them. Here’s the thing: the captain who found it wanted absolutely no part of it. Refused to even set foot on it. He had it sunk over by the reefs. He even took his own ship and put it in the dry docks for the season to scrape off the wood and have it sanitized and refinished. He was talking about selling it and moving up to different places. He said the waters weren’t as hospitable as they used to be. Credit:  Jeff Hartin � � MORE STORIES FROM AUTHOR : JEFF HARTI N